Actually this won’t start at the beginning but it is my beginning as a blogger.

A year ago in March I tried to end my life. That wasn’t the first time I tried but it has been the last. I was determined to fall forward that time rather than repeat another cycle.

I had never understood the concept of loving oneself. It seemed impossible. That would have been enough to tackle but another companion thought that I believed was that God hated me. Theoretically I knew it was untrue but it haunted me. I was a mess.

Over time I will start at the beginning and tell the tale of the journey that took me there and the one that took me away from there.